I was listening to Alicia Keys - No One but You on the radio while I was driving (of course) and saw a lady and an older lady walking by the side of the road. The older lady was holding on to the younger lady and it was so sweet and then I thought about how holding hands is so sweet, especially when you see a couple strolling along just enjoying their time together. Then I thought how yoga practice teaches you that your hands are an extension of your heart so when you clasp your hands together you always leave them open just a bit to house your heart, it is a different position than when you pray and press your hands together. When you do yoga poses you are deeply rooted by your feet or hands and when your hands are to the ground in a pose they are rooting you to the earth so that your heart is connected to the earth and creates balance and strength. Thinking of all of this made me think of how as adults or how I as an adult am trying to undo things to get back to my Child's Mind. (Follow the link for a really cool, inspirational tid bit!!) I see Mason and how uncomplicated his world is. He gets sooo excited coloring with markers that he stops every 30 seconds to do a happy dance as he's drawing. He runs around cement columns under the parking garages and is just thrilled. It must be so exhilerating to be a child and not know how to act, how to make it, how to work hard, how to live under someone else's expectations. I do believe that discipline is key - it sets boundaries - you practice yoga or whatever your life's calling is day in and day out and you begin to understand yourself more and more.
And you also find your heart.
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Last night Mike spotted a male Painted Bunting on our bird feeder!!! It was so cool to see this bright, colorful little creature, it was almost mystical! Click the link for more info about the Painted Bunting species on the Audubon website. I was thrilled to see this little guy in our yard. I think I saw the female
but now looking at pictures I don't think it was. The one I saw was more grey and red-ish. Either way I hope he's made a home of our yard!
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I really do, in the shower, while filing papers, driving around town. Funny how that happens, I guess my mind is in a more organic state, thoughts are fluid and I slip into brain outerspace world. Anyway, I have been reading When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron on and off for a few years. Since I have come back to practicing yoga more regularly I find that her book speaks to the mental side of the yoga practice. For me yoga seems to be about gaining confidence in myself and what I can do when practicing the poses and it helps calm my mind. Since I found yoga and meditation in High School and throughout College it has softened me up or better yet has helped me realize that it's okay to be soft. Twice in the past two months I have cried during yoga which is so weird to me, my emotions overcome me, it's like I'm remembering how to feel. I often put my emotions aside a lot of the time in my day to day life but reading Pema's take on the Toglen breathing practice really hit home for me. So I thought I'd share it. It's really long...eek! But I think it's a great thing to share.
I actually didn't know about this practice and it seemed to relate to something I already do. After reading Mason a story at night before bed we click off the light and I sit with him, sometimes I talk to him about the day, about life, about God, about stuff and sometimes we just sit. A lot of times I find the most joy during this part of my day. Just being with him and holding him on my lap. I would like for him to appreciate quiet time too since all day we are working, playing, conversing whatever...sometimes I sit there with all of that contentment and I just think I wish God could give everyone in the whole world a hug right now. Just for a moment for their to be a bit of joy in their lives and I wonder if it happens and I hope it does.
So here's what she has to say!
In order to have compassion for others, we have to have compassion for ourselves.
In particular, to care about other people who are fearful, angry, jealous, overpowered by addictions of all kinds, arrogant, proud, miserly, selfish, mean —you name it— to have compassion and to care for these people, means not to run from the pain of finding these things in ourselves. In fact, one's whole attitude toward pain can change. Instead of fending it off and hiding from it, one could open one's heart and allow oneself to feel that pain, feel it as something that will soften and purify us and make us far more loving and kind.
The tonglen practice is a method for connecting with suffering —ours and that which is all around us— everywhere we go. It is a method for overcoming fear of suffering and for dissolving the tightness of our heart. Primarily it is a method for awakening the compassion that is inherent in all of us, no matter how cruel or cold we might seem to be.
We begin the practice by taking on the suffering of a person we know to be hurting and who we wish to help. For instance, if you know of a child who is being hurt, you breathe in the wish to take away all the pain and fear of that child. Then, as you breathe out, you send the child happiness, joy or whatever would relieve their pain. This is the core of the practice: breathing in other's pain so they can be well and have more space to relax and open, and breathing out, sending them relaxation or whatever you feel would bring them relief and happiness. However, we often cannot do this practice because we come face to face with our own fear, our own resistance, anger, or whatever our personal pain, our personal stuckness happens to be at that moment.
At that point you can change the focus and begin to do tonglen for what you are feeling and for millions of others just like you who at that very moment of time are feeling exactly the same stuckness and misery. Maybe you are able to name your pain. You recognize it clearly as terror or revulsion or anger or wanting to get revenge. So you breathe in for all the people who are caught with that same emotion and you send out relief or whatever opens up the space for yourself and all those countless others. Maybe you can't name what you're feeling. But you can feel it —a tightness in the stomach, a heavy darkness or whatever. Just contact what you are feeling and breathe in, take it in —for all of us and send out relief to all of us.
People often say that this practice goes against the grain of how we usually hold ourselves together. Truthfully, this practice does go against the grain of wanting things on our own terms, of wanting it to work out for ourselves no matter what happens to the others. The practice dissolves the armor of self-protection we've tried so hard to create around ourselves. In Buddhist language one would say that it dissolves the fixation and clinging of ego.
Tonglen reverses the usual logic of avoiding suffering and seeking pleasure and, in the process, we become liberated from a very ancient prison of selfishness. We begin to feel love both for ourselves and others and also we begin to take care of ourselves and others. It awakens our compassion and it also introduces us to a far larger view of reality. It introduces us to the unlimited spaciousness that Buddhists call shunyata. By doing the practice, we begin to connect with the open dimension of our being. At first we experience this as things not being such a big deal or so solid as they seemed before.
Tonglen can be done for those who are ill, those who are dying or have just died, or for those that are in pain of any kind. It can be done either as a formal meditation practice or right on the spot at any time. For example, if you are out walking and you see someone in pain —right on the spot you can begin to breathe in their pain and send some out some relief. Or, more likely, you might see someone in pain and look away because it brings up your fear or anger; it brings up your resistance and confusion.
So on the spot you can do tonglen for all the people who are just like you, for everyone who wishes to be compassionate but instead is afraid, for everyone who wishes to be brave but instead is a coward.
Rather than beating yourself up, use your own stuckness as a stepping stone to understanding what people are up against all over the world.
Breathe in for all of us and breathe out for all of us.
Use what seems like poison as medicine. Use your personal suffering as the path to compassion for all beings.
Mason woke up early this morning so we have had quite a productive day already!!! I felt so proud and happy to finally take some time to work in my yard. We colored, inspected bugs, trimmed some plants, watered and weeded the garden and harvested some goodies. The garden is definitely drying up. Have tiny carrots and corn. My sunflowers are so tall and gangly but still pretty with smaller buds!!! Supposed to be almost 100 degrees here today so maybe Mas and I will take a dip in the pool tonight to cool off!! Hope you're having a great summer too!
Just thought this was a nice poetic shot of our deck from this morning. The garden is doing great in some spots, not so hot in others...We are still getting cucumbers but they have definitely slowed down. Since the big rain a couple weeks ago my roses have put off shoots and buds!!! Everything is doing pretty well.
Other great news...my Aunt from judycookinteriors.com was just in town and we went all over the house checking out our space and she even helped me hang some pictures in the living room and dining room. I hope to post those soon! We just had our annual beach week and let's just say the house has been neglected so I'd like to spruce it up a bit!!
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